Monday, February 25, 2008
another scandal?
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Sunday, February 17, 2008
imperfection
Perfect...I am not.
I have done many things that made me proud of myself...but I also have done things that made me regret...
I have so many unwise decisions, which make me feel stupid at times.
I have said words that have inspired many...
many people I have hurt because of my sharp utterance...
I have love and expressed it in many ways..
cared and have given what I could,
I have caused pain for not doing what I should have done...not saying what I should have said...doing what I should have not.
I have failed myself...
I have failed people who have trusted me...people who have put their faith on me...
I have sank them in frustrations....caused them misery
I have been a wall ...
but there were times this wall shattered....
because I was also weak
and needing a wall to depend on..
There were times I thought that I was so strong...
surpassed all the tides...adversities and still standing tall....
But there were times I linger in the past...
couldn't move on and let go...
I am not perfect, don't you know?
I am not.
but despite the imperfections...I still continue to go on
going through this battle called life...
armed with faith in God...
trusting that He still loves me inspite of that...
this imperfection that I have now, is what I am working on....
to be a better person that He wanted me to be....
this imperfection have made me realized who I am...what I can do, what I can not...
knowing my imperfections has taught me to accept myself...
forgive myself...and my brothers as well...
that they too are not perfect...just as I am
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Thursday, February 14, 2008
How to love difficult people...
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Tuesday, February 12, 2008
in pursuit of truth
"...I would admit, I guess, in public and to the nation...There are certain things I did in my life that, I guess, upon reflection I would lose some respect to myself. But all the remaining respect I have in myself, I don't want to lose.....I'd like whatever respect I have in myself, to keep it. If I will go along this NBN, I guess I'm going to lose it all...I'm afraid I'm going to lose my soul..."
- Rodolfo "Jun" Lozada
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Monday, February 11, 2008
Odi et Amo
"Odi et amo. quare id faciam, fortasse requiris?nescio, sed fieri sentio et excrucior. "
-I hate and I love. Why do I do it, perchance you might ask?I don't know, but I feel it is happening to me and I'm burning up.
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Sunday, February 10, 2008
My everyday consists of routinary works...eating my energy...consuming me gradually...
if not for Rochelle, I would have been a lot more consumed. God is really good for He knows when to give help.
I have contended myself to this infinite boredom...senseless travel...
I still am contemplating whether because this is fate...or my choice.
Perhaps, the latter.
I know very much that life is proportionate on how our thoughts view it...
if we think we our blessed..we are blessed.
if we think we are miserable...that also is true.
However, the past few weeks were part of my down and trying moments...and honestly, including now.
Assessing my life seems a depressing review I would rather skip...
Not that I am complaining...but, well, maybe in some ways..
They say that when you are good in one aspect, you are not in the other. But what happens when you are neither good at both?
Depression! ....depression will eat you.
...the worst part is when it is eating you slowly....
Torture...it is!
I just want to think (no matter how hard it is to condition both mind and heart) that I shall be happy with what I have...rather than looking for what I lack.
Somehow...knowing what I do not have motivates me.
Yeah, it is depressing...
but I just would like to see it as a challenge...
next time I will be a lot careful with the decisions I will be making...
I am hopeful ...this will just disappear one day....
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Limbo
...I am like a restless soul,
travelling with out even knowing where to go.
Tired but unfulfilled.
Still I am in confusion...
all questions, I have inside still left unanswered.
Thoughts battling with my thoughts...
words interrupted by words.
I am in limbo...
knowing which way to go to is a huge tide I have to conquer
just to get through...
So many things I have considered...
...so many...I forgot to consider mine.
My tears wanting to drop...
but I have now a heart so tough...
though hurting...almost to blast...but still trying to hold everything up.
I don't know where to go...I am restless
tired...weary...but I want to believe not yet defeated...
I want to go to Creator's long and consoling embrace,
to ease the burden, I have been carrying so long...
I want His ultimate love...to fuel me...to fill me...
to go through this battle...without giving up..without surrending....
and His hands, I want to hold...to get strength...courage...and peace.
I need Him in my life...
...I need His love.
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