I’ve learned both good and bad things…
I can not be honest all the time and expect the same from others…I can only trust so much. And keep everything for myself.
I never thought that too much concern can ruin or destroy what has been built...
...and sometimes it is better not to know things...unless, you want to hurt yourself.
to go on...or move further...is always the best resort, if not the last.
Inspite of everything...It is still a choice not to nurse even a bit of grudge...
i will try to understand...as much as i can

God works in mysterious ways...
we have just to trust.

--believer

knife

did you hear it?
or better not...?
its sweetness can deceive you...but bitterness of its truth
cuts like a knife....

--Lies

thief

I tried to find a reason...
...a reason i didn't find.
why I can't escape you..and my thoughts can't avoid
This shouldn't be!
like a thief..you stole my sanity!
So please..just give it back to me....

--desperation

...just when things go wrong...
I know I only have to TRUST God...
I will find a way,
God will lead me through...

it pays to have friends (my angels)

because somebody will guide you through your journey...which path to take....and which to avoid.
...i would heard them shouting...yelling...nagging....at me
and though most of the time they thought i am just taking them forgranted....which makes them a lot furious .....the truth is, all their opinions count
i may be stubborn most of the time...but i listen
i know that their concerns are priceless....
....i am just ssoooo glad and feel blessed to have them all in my life....
love them so much!!!
more than words...

my closest guy friend

it is when you've gotten over a person...saying it's finally over.
it is when you have accepted the reality... and know very well that you can never be...
it is when you no longer asking anything in return....it is when you are happy with the happiness that the person has....
it is when you're becoming happy each day...seeing him that way

it is when there's no more hurting...probably because you've got used to it...and the tears have run dry....

it is when you are just allowing the feelings to flow....every day...neither denying nor pretending
it is when enjoying every moment with the person
it is when being at your happiest when with the person
it is when being yourself...your worst and your best...
it is when you've grown not to get tired...but grown to accept things the way it is....
it is when hatred and bitterness are not the result of your being not compensated from what you're giving and capable of giving of....but rather, understanding and accepting....and loving the person inspite of
it is when letting go of the emotion...and not the person...because doing the latter would mean...taking off a part of your life....
it is when you have grown to love the person....the way he is right now...
and just a thought of him...makes you smile or even laugh...for no reason at all
and the thought of losing him in your life....makes you weep badly.
it is when the time has passed....but the feeling has not...
but you're just taking your time ...
it is when becoming contented to be the best of friends...
and chosing between any other things...
you know you will choose this way......
if that's the only consolation to keep him...
*****
it is when every day you thank God for giving you a friend like him...

I remember i was once asked, why i have different set of friends...
why i can deal with different kinds of people...with different personalities...
perhaps, i just know how not to judge people....regardless of any other factors
i am not perfect...and i can only respect and understand....
people act differently with different people...i can not judge a person base only to certain incident...i have no right
acceptance is a long process....it takes a while....but it a must
trust is important...
sincerity
...honesty
everyday i take step no matter how hard it is...to be a better friend
i am not perfect...
i, too, have flaws.....
but one thing for sure...i take friendship seriously...

you don't know me that much...

i am crazy?...i am stubborn?...i am lost?...i am confusing?...i am dumb ass?...i am shallow?
what else?! - what else can you say or think to hurt me?
i have heard so many hurtful words in this life...
no matter how painful all those things...i crawled...just to get up...telling myself...nobody can ever hurt me.
i don't need to tell you who am i....you don't know where i'm coming from...
what you know about me is not enough....
do not act as if you know me...that you know the entire me....
i have gone through a lot...and never will i waste those experiences that have made me....only to make convince you more....that i am only like that....like what you think about me...
do not act as if you know me....because you don't...

***we can never trust our senses....there is more than what we can see

never say never

...said i will never say goodbye again
I am glad for gaining back an old friend
...and promised myself never to do such a thing, to have my friend go away...
but in life there's no certainty...
i can only do what i can...
and say less of a promise...for time always put me on a test.