Kaboommm!!!

Here I am again....I'm back!

I miss this...
I find it so funny that I only get to visit here everytime I suddenly thought of visiting my friend's funny blogsite...
Is he still visiting this site? I guess hindi na cguro....

Anyhow, updates updates (so crazy updating this...wala naman ibang nagbabasa kungdi ako hahah)

Migration going to Germany didnt push through...not meant for me. But my new project (Reverse Migration) will push through this Oct. 26... parang may event sa 27...hmmm

I miss my netbook...got to get it na this week.

Thank you sa itouch ko for accompanying me every lonely nights.

It has been such an undescribable month for me... grabe!!! Nakakaloka. --> un na yun!

I'm praying naman..so I guess God knows better...im lifting everything to Him..
Pinakamahirap tlagang kalaban ang sarili at emosyon....
Nakakasawa nang magpigil...all my life I needed to keep up with darn standards that other people have set for me...
"That's not you!" " That's so you"..."wag na tigil na" "ang talino mo pero tanga ka pagdating dyan..." blah blah blah....
What they don't know...this is me...I don't care who the person is...I don't care what other people think of the person...when I care...I care. When I feel...I feel regardless of....
It's so hard...coz you're in the middle of not wanting other people to be disappointed...and not disappointing yourself.. But most of the time I end up disappointing nalang myself...

I don't know how this has started...but the hardest part is how to end this.
It's easy to say...just stop.
But i've figured out...it isnt that easy to do.
Been here...and not im going through it again..