wake up!

i'd rather not be coated with so much promises and hopes...if these are false.
perhaps, it is not something i really can beg for...
sometimes i wanna tell myself to just shut up...and accept things.
i am still in denial
and insisting...
when will i get tired?- only myself can answer that...
an answer i have long been searching....almost there but always stepping back


i can give...but not so much.