caught in between

i am in between of wanting to leave and not wanting it...
my cuz says "if you can't take the heat of the kitchen...get out from the kitchen." which is quite rational and uncomplicated...
but iam fixated in one point!
sometimes i question myself if time has changed what i value most...or has it changed me completely?
oneday i have a decision..the next day i totally decided otherwise.
what the hell is eating me?!
...if I would only consider myself...i could have been impulsive in the first instance.
but i don't live only for myself...there are others i have to consider...
both my mind and heart are saying to choose happiness...
now, i have no right to complain...considering i choose the other way.
i am stuck!
but until when?.....