.....and WHO'S BACK?

MY CRUSH IS BACK!!!!
a.k.a HAPPINESS

***expect for more smile.... : )

moving forward...

she was right...
I should not let other people hamper my opportunity to succeed.
I should not bring so much load in my travel...it is still best to travel light.
I should not let other people influence me in making decision for my life.
...the best way is to move on and focus on my path.

...and I will always remember the advices my friend has given me...
he said:
Think about what you want to become...
Will your decision make your dream reachable?
Think...think and think.


in life we make decisions...
it is a choice whether to think we have made the right move or a bad one...
nevertheless, we can always make it right...and it's never too late

everyday is an opportunity to meet people.
...an opportunity to know someone
and an opportunity to let someone know us....

just had my exam

and it was tiring....

There's a NINOY in all of us...

"I am burning the candle of my life in the dark with no one to benefit from its light.The candle slowly melts away,soon its wick will be burned out,and the light is gone!If someone will only gather the melted wax, reshape it, give it a new wick-for another fleeting moment,my candle can once again light the dark,be of service one more time and then-Goodbye."-Benigno Ninoy Aquino, Jr

unpredictable

when something went beyond what is expected
you have the choice to enjoy or hate it...
sometimes circumstances surprise us
sometimes it makes us grateful for its coming....
there are things we can not foresee
and happens the least we expect it...

We all have our moments of pain and trials.......
what matter is....we never give up pursuing our path.

only time...

It’s amazing how the world works. Sometimes what we really need is just TIME, to appreciate the things that we have but had not really took the time to nurture, enjoy, and be glad about. But just like a seed, it didn’t take overnight to make it a useful and fruitful tree. It went through some process. It counted some time. Just like human…whether we like it or not, we will all go through some changes…some phases…to achieve not only our age but growth and purpose.

I used to think that life is so unfair (well, it is sometimes, but it really depends on how we perceive things going our way) but the truth is, it isn’t THAT much.
I used to cry over things that didn’t work my way, but I’ve realized that I could have just let other things passed as there are things beyond my control.
I used to pity myself and sulk in sadness and isolation when people started to bully me, criticize me, and do all those scheme or mean things just to pull me down, when I could have just shrugged it off and proceed with my everyday, unaffected. By isolating myself I even deprived myself to enjoy life and enjoy the company of people who value me and whom I value. I could have just focused on the things which are more important than spending time thinking and finding answers as to why other people are like that. The answer is simply because everyone is different in many ways and for many reasons. I should not also fear what has yet to happen. If there are things to take away in ourselves, it should be fears, anxiety and other negative thoughts as these things hamper our way to growth and success. As the saying goes “There is always a sense in traveling light…” those things, on the other hand, make our travel very heavy.
I used to decide on things (involving my life) which should be decided FOR my self alone, but ended up for other people.
What other people would say usually get into nerves. I let those nasty things affected and influenced my life only to realized later in life that people will always have something to say to anything, to everything and to everyone-Good or Bad or both. What we are and what we have will matter, relatively, base on the values of the people that we encounter. How well they will treat us, sometimes, is not about how well we treat them…it will still depend on the kind of upbringing they have and what matters to them.
I used to walk away from the heat when I can’t take it, thinking that I can not let other people to have the luxury to step on me or to win over out of my expense, not even realizing that by leaving, I gave them the way bigger way for their comfort and then there I was – lost in direction.
But at the end it is not who lost the war. The real battle is our own battle towards what we want…towards our purpose. Our foes sometimes could be our friends, same goes with the latter. Never burn any bridges; we never know when we will have the need to cross any. We should always remember to value relationships. Be nice to people, but be sincere. Be nice to yourself and know when to choose your grounds.
There are times that what we want in life, if decided unwisely will turn out the other way around. It is not just all about emotions, sometimes.
To look back in the past is not to regret the things that had been done which should have not done or could have been avoided. Life is to live forward. We only turn back to recollect lessons and not to live in the past. As everyone’s path (should be) is toward perfection (or perhaps a word similar or close to that), it only means that nobody is perfect. Imperfection is not an excuse to justify our mistake but rather an acceptance of the fact that we are not perfect and that acknowledgment is a step towards growth.
As we mature we become wiser, unless we stopped growing and only continue aging. Everyday is an opportunity to learn. Life’s profoundness brings burden and complexities to the unwise but a brighter smile, sharper mind and a stronger faith to the so called wise.
It is a continuous process to comprehend life. It doesn’t end in one or more chapters for you to be able to fully understand the story and to get the message behind. For as long as we have it and for as long as we don’t give up living and not merely existing we will find not only lessons but miracles each day…each hour…and each minute that we breathe and it could even be a lot meaningful if we will live life to the fullest.

FOOLISH HEART

foolish heart...makes a foolish person...and a foolish person makes a foolish life...

it's a question of what life you want to have....

VAGUE

something has changed...
when it was something you think you can get a grip of...
it turned in to something that has the power to succumb you..
over powering it...overcoming has made you triumphant...once
to do it this time is but a chance
...but something has changed
when the only remedy is a contradiction of what you want
to think of keeping it...in silence
will perhaps be the only comfort...
than complexity as everybody seems to imply.

how can other people manage to pass the burden...or the guilt?

LOVE FOR THE PROFESSION

I have sacrificed so much...but i so love the profession... to have let go of so many things for it.
i can't see myself in any other profession other than this..
be it a cliche but i have this altruistic feeling why i want to pursue it...regardless of how difficult the way to achieve it...irrespective of when...all i want is to reach the finish line....and i know my life will have a better start thereafter.

There's no turning back...
I have never been this happy...
I will never regret the day I first step in lawschool...
it has changed me a lot...since then.
I am prepared to any consequence...
I know there's no certainty...
But one thing i am certain of...i will never give up.
if i have to hurdle all the way...i will do
no matter how much it cause me..
my intention is good....i know God will help me all the way.

Oneday I know it will be all worth it.

the best thing to do in this trying times...is to hold on to God
for He surely knows what is best for me!

I guess the most painful thing to hear from a friend...
" im tired of you!"
I just felt so sorry about it...

Nevertheless...things shall go on, maybe not the same way...but IT SHALL...

LESSON I HAVE JUST LEARNED

A LESSON I HAVE JUST LEARNED...

- Sometimes it is best to keep things within yourself...especially if it is a problem, for others may also have their own issues and for all you know they to are having a hard time dealing with them.

- Do not be a burden to others...likewise to your own self.

- Things are complicated...but you always have a choice to make it less complicated.

- If you want to be happy...take out the things that make you sad.

- "if you can't take the heat of the kitchen...get out from it" as per my ate.

- People will always have something to say about you. Positive or Negative - it will really be up to you whether to take everything or to strain it.

- Never give up on your dreams...along the way others or circumstances will try to take that away from you...make things hard...make your journey difficult...but at the end of the day it's really up to your decision whether to go on...or to let them succeed.

- In pursuit of what you want...there is a point where you have to choose over things...
follow your heart - no turning back - be happy with your decisions - if it does not work - try some alternative route, but make sure you'll reach the destination you are suppose to go to.

- In this life, you have to make yourself strong enough, for at the end of the day nobody can help you but yourself.

- Friends may turn their back...it's a fact!
God will not - it's a truth!

OFFICIALLY...

it's finally over!

it's now or never

I just needed to breathe for a moment...
I am more than 24hours awake...i reached home around past 7am - only to take a shower and get my stuffs.
I am officially tired!...wasted! ( and what a timing to bump into someone today...at this miserable state)
I know I have been complaining million times but have not made any decision yet...
It's like I'm crying for the pain but have not even bothered to take some medicines to totally cure it or to just even relieve the pain....
I am not happy...and it's beginning to be one hell.

Is it not okay to give up one fight if it is not worth it?
Is giving up means I am a weakling?...a loser?

I just can't believe that I am stuck in a situation and helpless about it!
I know that it was my choice, in the first place, and should be making an effort to adjust...however, sometimes there are things beyond my control....and if I could only have the powers to mitigate what has been making me insane, I would have done that even the first time it strikes....But I have none.

I'm afraid to wake up one day... shattered, distressed, and destroyed. My confidence and esteem are slowing draining/depleting...i'm afraid i'll wake up one day empty.

Sister Amy said "I guess the best sign from the Lord is that you are no longer happy..."
In our counselling session, she mentioned that it is now my values that will dictate how will I decide...what are my priorities....what I value most in my life....
I KNOW ALL THE ANSWERS...
but sometimes I can really be stubborn...

I need to gather all my guts...probably faith...to come up with a decision.