here i am again...playing dumb and fool...
i guess i will never understand why certain feelings havent changed...even if it shouldnt stay
i have nothing to hope for...for the hope had passed me by...
the truth has been set out...offered...laid down my table
but i kept denying it for so long...only because i could not bear the pain of losing him in my life...
if loving him in silence is the only consolation...and the only way to keep him i'd do that wholeheartedly
i'd be lying if i'd say im no longer hoping...my faith is rallying inside and asking God another chance...bargaining
here i am again....pushing things