AMATEUR...I SAY TO MYSELF

You are not an expert in the field of playing games and leaving ripped hearts behind, out of satisfying egoistic and self-centered desires.
If you have hurt somebody else’s … you have a justifiable reason – it was probably merely unintentional and undesigned.
You maybe good in pampering yourself and spoiling your whims and caprices…but one thing’s for sure – you don’t do that at the expense of others.
You are more like a firefly too curious and silly to test yourself.
Flabbergasted with the bright light the fire produces.
TOO TRUSTING to the innate goodness that the fire has…
Deceived by the view of it,
Foolish to go near and too late to fly away
Most the time…a willing victim
You get hurt with your own stubbornness
You have struggled so many times to forget and get over.
Getting near the fire is but a moment to remember as this is where the trill domiciles and the unexplainable-strange-weird feeling dominates
But when the fire ends and the light fade away
Darkness seems to be a haunting mystery you wouldn’t want to unravel.
It echoes right through your heart…like a sound that irks the ear.
Its silence shouts louder than what you want to hear
And the “burns” pains like forever
When realization comes…other things begin
It is sad that in the process of what you think is best
You have to give up things that have almost been part of your being
Because trying to keep BOTH is like destroying EVERYTHING.
It is SAD…
But it is the CONSEQUENCE of it.
People come and go
And sometimes it seems like a PATTERN…
You don’t know how it begins…and you don’t know when it will end.
You ask questions…
But all you gather in the end is but the same answers, only in different ways….only from different people…
Just when you think you have learned the lessons pretty well
Fate puts you in a TEST.
Still you are the same firefly who has not learned that fire can kill you…
You have gone through the process of healing your wounds
Only to have it wounded again…
You are still the same stubborn person that you are
Unconscious about what can hurt you
Not vigilant against the potential heart breaker
You are still the same person who didn’t learn much from the past
And the same person who ends up asking “why?”, but couldn’t verbalize….

You should learn now…and put an end to the pattern.